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2007-01-01T15:00:00.000+08:00

i wish i had your baby picture, 'cos you were so damn cute you know.

goodbye day's on replay.

2006-12-31T22:14:00.000+08:00

TWO MORE DAYS.

happy new year everyone,

much love.

2006-12-30T11:44:00.000+08:00

sam, you rock & i <3 align="right">we had fun yesterday, fullstop.

she bought me earrings, really nice ones.

THANKYOU I LOVE YOU.

roses are not the way to my heart,

chocolates & nice earrings are though.

she was being such a bitchhhhh yesterday i wanted to slap her omg.

but then we entered TOPSHOP, &everything changed.

'cos we got so high, thanks to a certain form of clothing & those fluffy shoes.

HAHAH, then i fell in love with earrings & she started chanting that i was in love,

sam you're so annoying but i still love you babeeee <3

then it was time for chocolate frap with chocolate whipped cream, &we couldn't even finish the drink cos it was so filling & er cold, but it was love.

dinner with cousins&family was alright i guess.

i was too tired to eat much, &my feet were killing me by the time i reached home at 1030pm thanks to my pointyflats.

well i had a long long dream last night, which involved theidiotwho'scominghomeverysoonicannotwait&me&otherpeoplewhomicannotremembernow.

i've been having to many dreams, &that dream felt so real that when i woke up i thought it really happened but after thinking about it for like an hour then i realised that it was just a dream.

today's the 30th already, this week certainly did fly by:D

2 more days till 2007,

&another 2 till thelove's back,

everyone say hoo-ray.

Always, I know

You'll be at my show

Watching, waiting, commiserating

2006-12-28T12:05:00.000+08:00

im finally sixteen :D but apart from being able to watch nc16 shows, there's nothing much else that comes along with it aye. like claire said, turning 18's way more fun 'cos of booze & being legal. HAHA:D

i headed to cine yesterday to meet mich, where we had a good long lunch since we were busy talking more than half the time. we realised how small this bloody world is, 'cos in some way or another, everyone's connected to everyone & that's kinda scary dont you think? we talked about the usual; being school/friends/boys etc. then it was off to watch Night at the Musuem (if that's what it's called i cant really remember haha) & the ending was hell funny.

dinner at night with the family was good, i meant the food was good. BUT my night ended on a nice note 'cos i went window shopping after that ANDDDDDDD i heard the song that theidiot loves to sing just to annoy the hell out of me playing in the store! i wanted to just go omgomgomgomg & it was all i could do to just stop smiling to myself.

so the 27th december this year wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be, despite sam & theidiot being

out of town, there was still plenty of <3>

THANK YOU ALL who messaged me happy birthday at 12something in the morning & later on that day. i love you all truckloads <3>

i'm off to town tmr with sam, for movie & lunch all paid by her:D then it's time to window shop & yakk to our heart's content, i love you babe.

suddenly the 2nd doesn't seem so far away anymore. after tmr, i've just gotta hang in there for the last 2 days of this year then it'll be the 1st already. &since theidiot may be home as early as the 1st, i can't be happier.

you've been away for far too long.

i can't wait for 2007 to arrive, although im dreading the thought of lessons & homework all over again, i still can't wait. the train ride's to school are gonna long, but i'll have the<3>

you've been gone for far too long.

&in the end,

love's worth it.

2006-12-26T17:03:00.000+08:00

hi,

tomorrow's gonna be a good day.

out with michelle in the day,

dinner with the family later at night.

&sam may come home late tmr night too,

if not she'll be back early on the 28th.

then it's out with her on the 29th,

at least one out of two of my loves are back,

life's good.

then dinner with cousins&all on the 29th too,

which just leaves me with the last 2 days of 2006 to deal with,

then it's time to just sit by my phone & wait for it to start ringing with a call from the love.

i can't wait.

2006-12-26T11:39:00.000+08:00

it's gonna be me&dvd later on this afternoon,

to keep me occupied on this bloody rainy day,

to help me pass the time which seems to just crawlllll whenever im bored,

to help me pass yet another day without you,

&just to keep my heart going.

2006-12-25T17:29:00.000+08:00

the christmas mood in me has kinda blown out already,

i dont know & i dont really care.

i had a good time with my cousins,

what with all the behind-closed-door gossips,

&them trying to make me try on SKIRTS,

i love you both cousins <3

i think that feeling has finally gotten to me;

this is what happens when those i love are away from me for far too long,

at least sam's coming back on the 28th,

oh yay.

eight more days,

i can do this i can do this i can i can i can can can.

EIGHT.

2006-12-24T14:42:00.000+08:00

for a while i kinda lost track of time/day.

it's been six days,

of doing nothing but bumming around.

bbq dinner last night turned out not to be a bbq but catered food,

which was fine by me cos i wasn't really hungry.

too much champagne&red wine & too little food = pinkintheface me,

after which i was forced to stop drinking by the mother.

too many young kids, (in CROCS)

too many people i didn't know,

i had my brother for company,

oh hoo-fucking-ray.

the weather's gone all bloody grey & gloomy again,

my brother's watching STAR WARS dvd just to annoy me.

so i'm off to church tonight,

to watch tiny kids sing their hearts out on christmas eve,

i really don't give a damn but i dont have a choice you see.

i think i'll go count my coins now,

'cos i reckon i've got at least maybe fortybucks,

enough for me to do some shopping at fareast with the babe who's back on the twentyeighth,

I.CANNOT.WAIT.FOR.YOU.TO.COME.BACK.SAM.

i played msn games with sam just now,

this is what my holidays have been reduced to; BEJEWELED.

i hope she gets me that cutebag & earrings,

not that i've got plans of becoming so girly anyway,

tshirt&shorts for me still please.

OH & we realised that results may be released on Valentine's,

since we know it'll be out mid feb, before CNY.

no fucking way please do not ruin my Valentine's day too dammit.

NINE MORE DAYS OMG.

ONLY NINE MORE.

I THOUGHT IT WAS ELEVEN OR SOMETHING.

NO, IT'S NINE.

THAT'S GOOD,

VERY VERY GOOD.

well the first few days were the hardest,

now i just feel kinda .. empty & weird,

not having someone to constantly go out/message/call up,

come back soooon please?

still,

i miss you.

NINE.

2006-12-22T20:49:00.000+08:00

'cos she said,

fight pain with pain.

TWELVE.

2006-12-21T21:09:00.000+08:00

tmr i'll rent a movie for the afternoon,

to kill time.

you've no idea how time could kill me,

too much isn't good you see.

i'm going out of my mind,

but i'll just hafta hang in there till the 28th,

when sam's finallllllllyyyyyyyy back.

it's 1116pm in japan,

that's all i can think about now.

2006-12-21T16:26:00.000+08:00

19th Dec, Midnight Sun;
an amazing day,
&a night to remember.

THIRTEEN.

2006-12-20T20:53:00.000+08:00

my brother calls it separation anxiety,

tsk what nonsense please.

i started sniffing away since yesterday,

&today i've got a fullfledged horrrrrrible cold.

im wearing my black hoody but im still feeling chilly,

&the floor's so bloody cold my feet are freeeeezing.

my dad said japan's just one hour ahead of singapore,

which means it's like 955pm in japan now.

this is a pointless entry, i know.

what's worse with being sick,

is being sick & not being able to see you till next year.

&I.CAN'T.STOP.SNEEZING.

fuck i hate being sick.

2006-12-20T12:08:00.000+08:00

eleven movies actually, not ten.

damn good times they were,

&here's to many many more to come.

FOURTEEN.

2006-12-19T20:54:00.000+08:00

i thought i'd hate coming home today because i'd be all fucking miserable & all,

i will be - but not yet.

because i had the best day today,

&'cos the idiot just came online only for a minute even though he said five minutes,

just to see whether i was online,

&wish me; merry christmas, happy birthday & happy new year all at one shot,

since i wont see him anymore this year,

&to tell me that he misses me.

i never thought today could get any better,

thank you i'll miss you too & i know you know that.

AND i finally got to talk to cheryl cheah online,

like after 4 years of not seeing her around ever since she went to rg,

&since being in the same class in p3&p4,

HELLO AGAIN CHERYL.

i still cannot stop smiling to myself,

good night(:

2006-12-19T09:59:00.000+08:00

so i wont hestitate no more,

it cannot wait i'm sure,

there's no need to complicate,

i'm leaving the house in fifteen minutes,

&when i reach home i'll be a miserable bitch.

&this gloomy weather's not helping either,

all it does is rain fucking rain,

i couldn't sleep properly last night.

i should just count myself lucky,

that the flight's at night so we can go out in the day.

i'll still be a miserable bitch when i get home.

i need to go for a long run,

soon.

i'm yours.

2006-12-18T21:23:00.000+08:00

i deleted my whole previous post.

'cos we're good together,

it's gonna be fifteen fucking long days,

&i'm gonna miss you.

tmr will be the last till the 2nd,

good night world.

2006-12-17T15:49:00.000+08:00

it's rained like almost the whole day,

at least let the weather tmr be good pleasey please thanks.

i can't stop thinking about friday &

how i hope tmr's gonna be just as great cos there's not many days left

before the dreaded nineteenth.

i've got a bad feeling i wont be able to sleep tmr night,

thanks to that horror flick the idiot wants to watch,

at least my ticket's gonna be paid for,

im running out of $$$$$$$ man.

reichel maisuki shugeromoto nagashima-chua,

HAHA.

i'll miss nagashima.

2006-12-16T19:04:00.000+08:00

2nd post for the day,

i've really got nothing better else to do apparently.

nice nice songs & a gloomy room gets me thinking,

about the silly girl in india who's coming back one day after my birthday

(thanks huh),

&about the idiot who's leaving so soon,

it's too soon.

you know i've learnt it never does anyone good to just sit back & wait for things to happen.

'cos it just doesn't work that way,

ah well,

this doesn't work that way.

i realised im either on the computer/watching tv when im home,

&im only home on the weekends cos i've been going out almost every week day,

but come 19th that's all gonna change,

i want to fly to japan too please thankss.

look into your heart,

you'll find love.

2006-12-16T18:45:00.000+08:00

omfg i just received a letter from SRJC, & we've gotta report at school by 720am.

hello wtf which idiot told us 8am man.

it's a one fucking hour long train ride, &i've got 2 bus trips to make too.

i might as well just CAMP there la, it's so damn far please.

i have decided, since the journey's gonna be so fucking long,

i'll take the train.

cos i'll have company for the long long ride,

very very good company,

for those miserable long rides.

oh yay.

2006-12-16T11:52:00.000+08:00

FUN.

i can't remember when i've smiled like an idiot & laughed so much, in a long long time.

Eragon was not too bad,

we got last row seats which was good cos i hate it when some noisy kids make so much noise during the movie,

like those kids behind wj&i during The Holiday.

i've never walked so much, in town i mean.

from far east plaza, to the forum.

it was tiring shit, but good fun cos i made a fool of myself,

laughing almost the whole time please.

i like good endings,

thanks for yesterday.

so monday it shall be,

vivo city omg my legs are gonna ache again.

either a horror flick or that 140min damn long Fly Story.

i dont care,

i just want to go out,

before the idiot takes off for Japan.

19th's coming soon,

time pasts too fast sometimes.

you keep me happy.

2006-12-12T19:50:00.000+08:00

i didn't expect to hit town today, not in a tshirt&shorts&jacket.

today was supposed to be a sleep&rest&get rid of fever day.

it was the library first,

where we sat & said nothing much.

it took time.

so we took the train after that

colour difficiency was funny i swear.

'cos sometimes red=green/green=red/purple=blue/orange=pink,

very cute you poor thing,

haha.

ngee ann city,

taka,

wisma,

&macs.

we had fun,

laughing about stupid things,

&deja vu.

you know i hate the word; divorce.

cos it breaks families up,

&makes people sad,

it's making you sad.

&i can't do anything to help.

finally,

tampines interchange,

wait&talk.

my day ended in a very cute&funny fashion,

but i loved it all the same.

i can't wait for friday.

2006-12-11T20:49:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the shits,

but it's good now yea?

insensitive&oversensitive is not a good combination,

apparently.

terminal one viewing hall was too crowded,

too many kids running up & down,

too many old folks reading newspapers,

just too many.

fourpm dark clouds,

rain is love.

maybe tmr?

if not friday.

chalet's coming, i hope it's gonna be fun.

thursday; posting results.

fuck it.

ok im down with fever&cold, good night.

2006-12-10T21:28:00.000+08:00

i've been sleepy since 8.30pm but i couldn't go to sleep,

so im online chatting & listening to music,

&trying to look forward to tmr.

too much of a good thing can become bad.

it used to be a question,

&now i know the fucking answer.

now i understand,

you're not the cure for everything.

'cos you can be a problem too,

&then im fucked.

i know what's gonna screw me,

& screw us too.

i need sleep.

tmr everything will be fine, yes?

2006-12-09T18:19:00.000+08:00

love's a game.
it takes effort to get it right,
you've gotta learn along the way,
¬ make those same mistakes you made before.

&like all games,
you can be caught off guard,
unprepared&unaware of what's gonna hit you.

it's just a game after all,
you win some,
&you lose some.

but you see,
some games you wanna win,
really really badly,
& ha,
some you just dont wanna give a shit.

ten more fucking days, time's flying by way faster than i thought.
im thinking of that bet now,

aww you're not gonna win & neither am i cos i know just what'll happen.
haha.

if i had 2 wishes right now,
they'd be;
1. for samrina to fly back now cos she's bored in india i know,

&cos i miss her like a hell lot,

& cos she keeps me sane.
2. for my happy pill not to fly anywhere but stay in singapore.

please please pretty fucking please,
i need these 2 people.

you know,
roses are pretty.

2006-12-08T20:57:00.000+08:00

you made everything better,

i knew you would,

thanks.

monday it shall be.

2006-12-08T09:02:00.000+08:00

people do things & change their ways for the ones they love/cherish/care about,

right?

soon isn't always soon,

enough.

2006-12-07T20:11:00.000+08:00

im sick of all the arguments/shouting/crying/screaming.

today's the last straw.

i hope tmr makes up for everything.

2006-12-07T17:32:00.001+08:00

white lies & love.

i went to bed thinking about what you said

like those silly things that crack me up

or the times when we laughed for no reason

&it made me realise how much you mean to me.

good times, love.

keep them coming, please.

then from 3 to 4am i couldn't fall back to sleep

i realised how quiet it was at that hour

not a single car on the street

&all i could hear were the crickets

i started taking photos of the quiet street,

yellow bright street lights,

to pass the time.

you've no idea how badly im dreading the 19th.

2006-12-06T18:27:00.000+08:00

it sure doesn't feel like i hit the airport yesterday,

cos i miss terminal one.

it's nice & quiet, very very nice.

i realised i do not only have one big fat blister,

it seems that i've got 2 big fucking fat painful ones on my left heel & one on my right heel & one each furthur front of my foot.

brilliant.

im trying to think of fourteen things to do/people to meet to fill up those fourteen fucking long days to come,

&hopefully they'll pass faster.

i want to fly to japan too okay, &freeze my ass off because i dont have winter clothes.

plus side,

im getting a new phone later which isn't really new since it's my dad's old phone -

but it beats my all the same & i like it.

this post is redundant,
i hope tmr pasts real fasts,
then it'll be friday sooner,
ok bye.

2006-12-06T16:48:00.000+08:00

nice train ride

almost got off at the wrong stop

changed train

orchard mrt wait

i dont like strangers talking to me, go fucking away please.

lunch at wisma

walk walk walk

ngee ann city

walk somemore

nice big fat blisters

my toes hurt like hell

but i like my pointy flats still

very very much.

(you're never far, love)

maybe going out with my brother ain't that bad,

haha.

so we've decided to stay in tmr, since he's aching from training & my feet hurt like hell from those shoes.

movie rental afternoon, yay.

dejavu + airport on friday,

hell i can't wait please.

do you know?

2006-12-05T22:13:00.000+08:00

someone said; time flies huh?

&i couldn't agree more.

airport again, & my favourite walk again.

why do so many kids wear CROCS these days? bright yellow ones, green ones & PINK. then i saw these 2 sisters, both definitely below the age of ten, wearing plastic heels. &inside those transparent heels were tiny balls of plastic which rattled everytime they ran across the viewing hall.

they weren't just shoes alright .. more like rattles.

conversation at lunch was funny, since we ended up about the whole year with the juicier days in particular. so i guess i was right, i wasn't the only one who remembered that stuff then.

( hello sam, i miss you hurry fly back here please thanks)

back to the old spot, & time just flewwwwwww by. thanks to those idiots who called, & ended up talking to me for like two minutes telling me silly useless things i already know, HAHA. i swear i'm gonna be damn bored for those fourteen fucking long days, ah fuck it.

2 nice red marks on my hand, i was bitten.

today brought a totally new meaning to; compensation.

tampines mall¢ury square with the brother,

which reminds me it's town with my brother for the next two days too.

hopefully im allowed out on friday,

dejavu here i come.

( sam, come back la quick)

i've been wondering about the team chalet, &what it's gonna be like. 'cos the team's clique-ish, quite.

fun, that's all i want please.

tonight i'll have a good sleep,

im happy,

thank you.

2006-12-04T20:10:00.000+08:00

tampines mall walkabout

walk&walked to kill time

deck the halls

very silly&funny

fucking cold cinema,

thanks for the treat.

fries&somefunnydrink&coffee at mos burger

saw classmates

inside joke,

very funny.

walked more

bored = bickering

stupid,

but ah well.

many options

airport,

finally.

quiet train ride,

tanahmerah

expo

airport.

more walking again

from terminal 2 to terminal 1

very very very fun,

trust me.

through the carpark

out of carpark

into the open

out came the phone

photo photo photo

hiding is tough

fast reaction = no pictures taken,

GOOD.

terminal 1 viewing hall,

empty = no people&no planes

walk walk walk,

brilliant idea = sky train.

rush for sky train

fast fast ride

walking was fun-ner,

terminal 2 viewing hall,

a lil more crowded = more people&planes

cute kids

wearing crocs,

like omfg EEW.

nothing much can sum up my rest of the afternoon, cos watching planes load & fly off is .. well .. just watching planes take off. it wasn't boring cos the company was good you see, that's what made the difference.

today was .. moody,

&i suppose only i would know what the heck that means.

so today i learnt that being bored isn't very good,

&that 2 people being bored is worse than 1 being bored.

cos put 2 bored people together & you get some horrible moments.

fourteen days is gonna be long,

im more convinced after today,

how?

so let's go watch planes again please(:

2006-12-04T10:22:00.000+08:00

i should leave the house soon, so that for once i'll not be late & funny thing is im not usually late for meeting up with people, just this one person in particular.

sometimes it's better not to think too much,

&just do as you please,

&follow your heart,

instead of your head.

because no matter how much you try to think,

&rationalize things,

things don't always go right,

anyway.

so this should be a reminder to myself,

not to worry too much,

&just let things ..

go as they please.

i should stop trying to control things,

because im so afraid of everything just going,

wrong.

so it's time for me to learn to just,

relax & enjoy.

&it's time for me to learn to trust,

more.

'cos without trust,

there's nothing much left.

so i shall stop worrying about what's gonna happen,

i know lots will,

good & bad i suppose.

the ride's been too easy for too long,

&im glad cos it's been fun.

but i'll be ready for anything that comes my way,

or our way.

bye.

2006-12-03T14:05:00.000+08:00

it's not my fault, &yours either because it's no one's fault at all.
to come this far i swear i never thought it'd happen,
it's still a lil hard to believe,
is it?

'cos not everything's not in your hands,
& everything's impossible either.

dont you see?
what started out as a dream,
became something real,
which is good
'cos you can wake up & forget about dreams but it's not so easy in reality.

now what kind of lousy sixteenth birthday am i gonna have? why's everyone flying off (if they're not outta singapore yet) & not in town on my birthday, it's not fair.
&the 2 people that i was thinking of spending my birthday with (of cos not together, but still) are out of town on the 27th dec thanks very much you two.
at least sam'll be back on the 28th & we can go out on the 29th, but the other one's gonna be in japan till the 1st, omfg.

Just like a Star
Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Oh.. I do love you.

2006-12-02T10:59:00.000+08:00

because someone once said that keeping everything to yourself & in your heart isn't very good, it's hello to blogging again.

so Os over, prom's over & it's friggin DECEMBER already. & it'll be time for team chalet soon :D i can't wait, i dont miss those tough trainings under the hot hot sun but i do miss the company <3

now tell me how im gonna survive from 19th dec to the 1st of jan '07, FOURTEEN days dammit.